And that's the saddest part because i wouldn't really care that they're all up in my ears anyway.
I'm figuring out my homelessness situation and realize that there about 10 million people in last 5 major
cities on the west coast that i have visited and not one couch....
so i'm fine with that because i can raise my own rent..
.but i do find it weird that i could stay homeless for the rest
of my life and still here even the library desk whispering shit while i am at the gym, at the store, the cafe, in a car muffler, online...
so my presence is....but im not even willing to share my thoughts right now....
and then i thought...what a set up, i could just here the arguments right now they would have with
PETA or something it would be like...
"DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG, HOW MANY BRIBES, HOW MANY TRICKS I HAD TO TAKE OUT TO
KEEP THIS CHICKEN FRAMED?
i sold my house for BUS FARE during his GI Bill Motel Tour just to keep a cap on contacts with Adrian...so stay back BITCH
AND YOUR JUST GOING TO COME UP AND OFFER HIM A COUCH OR EVEN A JOB?
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU? IT IS MY JOB TO SET UP THESE YOKES... .
EVERYONE CAN HEAR IT, EVERYONE CAN SEE IT....
ITS MY FUCKING CAR CRASH OKAY!!!"
and then i found out and i'm like...UM
take a crow bar to that mutts snout faster than you can say MOTEL RENT. OK?
THE VOICES WONT INVITE PART II
COME AND CATCH ME TOO
the police probably have more to do with this than i think. Like an incessant barking at the gate as i have been labeled a threat
with the PD that although they CAN keep me walking, poor, and homeless, they can not control my internet access because i am one Hamburger Mary's Event, One Comment, One Email away from throwing the hole Jenga tower into the fire..
That i have been labeled part of the glitterati, somehow pigeon holed by detectives in local businesses from "incidents" that have happened when i'm "around" of which keeps the resentful and probably gay away from inviting me over because i'm bugged and not only will they invite me, they will invite the cops, the local drug dealers, homeless, immigrants, FBI Agents, lookey loos, dogs, over too...
"Do something for me,
go to the ladies room,
wag your finger
in your pussy,
come back
and let me smell it"
Janitor, Janet, Janice Dickinson, High Maintenence, Low Class, Background Check, Play Ground, Custodian, Incest & Cuzins...
I really feel closure when i decide a career path that i think is last resort and absolutely attainable being that i wont have to beat down barbie at the mall, starbucks or even Wendy's when my heart filled attempt to find work pathetically enables even the fattest bastards who've been granted a stealable shot at picking up a broom., and learning the art of dumpster diving.
(the heard is on the move...to the broom closet)
Im not saying i have proof that i am a cheerleader for losers but i know my tricks get stolen online with my pictures all the time and all i need is Miss Piggy stealing my job leads only to have her land in something as fabulous that i could achieve as putting on some rubber gloves and rimming a toilet seat.
I then plan on working my way up to food service...and then management...slowly...painfully...boringly...pooringly.........bandwagonly.....
the VA just gave me the address to the homeless clinic too...they only take EX Soldiers so that should thin out the groupies and get me paid...
i just watched the movie the men who stare at goats which reminds me the fun these guys have in Iraq over there with the help of the military. George Clooney plays a KBR civilian amongst soldiers teaching PSY Ops to infiltrate peoples heads and also trains a anonymous platoon of men who go on a wild ride that flirts with court martials and jail time from experiments with LSD on soldiers.
So now its just a pointless drift to applied with the General Relief appointment so i can get to wiping down the rimming chairs at local business who need a janitor. They can call me back on my new Samsung I plan on buying at target with the pennies theyll check me on a virgin mobile plan, and if they don't then it jus
What were my first thoughts this morning besides hearing the endless loop of Afro Jacks "lets go take a ride in the car song" from the sensation podcast on iTunes in my head was arriving at a chapel by the beach that offers food distribution to the general public. Now i have very limited food money right now but thanks to my disgust i did not go because i realized that psychologically it is like being fed by someone you hate, or your parents. My mother never fed me timely meals and i realize that i wouldn't be alone at dinner time where other families feel resentment and just plain hate while they sit down to eat together, if it all. Being that i can eat bagels until i get my food stamps again rather than try to ignore the plain wrong feelings of a public pantry where the other clients just sit there and peck at my escape plan...of which i'm coping with reading the new book How Civilizations Die.
Its helping me ignore the dream i had about the elderly black people moving from house to shack as i questionably carried plates in, and out, of thier slave plantations, i just decided, IN MY SLEEPLY NIGHTMARE that they had gang banged robbed Target shitty platewear again...
Those Crazy Americans....
I walked into Macy's today bleeding from a pimple on my eye brow. At the gym after my bake in the sauna and blow there It was swollen above my right brow so i snipped it with scissors and it bleed yellow pussy, blood, then clear fluid...and then blood. I thought it was a good time to sample Clinique since i was near but have all decided on not caring about the little infections as i could probably kill that virus and a lot more with Chemotherapy for Cancer patients who need to stop the reproduction of damaging cells although this virus seems to only target the face as the skin on it is clogged with its owned glands and then bacterial gets swollen causing bad scaring.
Why?
Is there something about the glands on the face that are suicidal and need to be cleared with acupunture needles? That's probably it and i priced acupuncture facials in China Town for over a hundred dollars so until then its just me a pair of scissors and alcohol astringent to kill bacteria and puncture any pustules...
Legally i'm 28 years old and i just had my last 2 wisdom teeth surfaced on my top jaw before i die am cremated and turned to ash forever. That's probably not normal being that i expect to get my first apartment to myself close to 40 years old as i will be a angry motel star until then. Though i do feel confident that i can find a payed wage by next year, it will be all for renting motel rooms. Unfortunetly shows on MTV like Jersey shore are still causing owners to gouge RENT as they have no compassion and can jack up the prices competitively as we camp helplessly just because it already is a nuisance to sublet rooms in homes and most young people already ruined their credit scores with college loans, cell phones, and credit cards.
Craigslist.com. the easiest, dirtiest, smelliest pussy public swap meet in the world is still at it. Los Angeles has a high rate of advertised sober homes based of suicidal impulse choices and ugly wives, and stupid kids probably wont be moving in my ruck sack ever. Social dating website also are no way to meet a room mate unless u enjoy the 4 minutes u two get down on the floor and stretch out each others assholes, as the revolving door usually starts swinging also if ur any good and niggas pimp pagers start beeping of which is something to avoid because soon you'll be getting a invitation for AIDS to stay.
The date is 2013, and i realized that the height and relief of the day is not a check from the welfare of $220 that i get monthly but the fact that everyone will be dead in 100 years and the new generation will have gone away. Whether your a cop trying to use me as a pon for a drug crack down or a bitchy bottom hater who is cock blocking.... and if ur hetero and just trying to look in...WHAT U NEED IS A TICKET TO THE SHOW....and that is $100 dollars a seat HONEY
Whether your in a house now, dying in a hospital or growing in Kim Kardashian's womb, you will be dead by 3013, if not a citizen of new china..
besides being snubbed by the glitterati because an INCLING of an invitation will create a stampede that will suck in the police, FBI, and any voyeur it is public knowledge to let these embers turn to ash in some motel somewhere in the east while i do shifts at the hospital mopping and cleaning waiting for those to come in and live their life tragedy through tragedy maybe one day opening some kind of a position besides holding a can of lysol and a mop next to dying victims in the hospital..where we are surely all headed...
Meanwhile... who wants a drink. i spent last night attempting a sober coma in some ditch somewhere homeless under a freeway underpass annoyed that the voices keep trying to out me and off which i very verbally decided that i should throw a WACO fest and shut the door while the flames ember everyone inside to my delight of this blog..
i would insert a picture of drag queens outting snitchy bottoms but i will anyway because hmmm...im sure they have guns and chains...so...not that they would be messed with ...
Either way ur motor seems to be the closest thing i have to an assistant, as it follows my train of thought at strange hours of the night like 3am when a Chevron truck speeds over the pass combusting fuels into the air and of course the smell of chemicals from the factories nearby in el segundo that sometimes smell like a meth users bathroom...not that i have been invited to one lately as my "SECRET" fan club has chocked off any connection that is the least bit attractive or respectable thanks to the Police and FBI who WILL use me as a pon in a drug crack down meanwhile ogres at the store can only complain that after their shift if they tell a fat bastard named al is going to kick my ass at JackintheBox as the chola's are already putting ash, cum, shit, and broken glass in their foods,,,if u didnt hear fergie right like 5 years ago Shit now it full civil war with these people so...im just trying to catch one and put him/her on my cross catholic style.....
maybe ill look more like Madonna huh...
My relocation to different parts of the country is becoming more of a reality as probably more than 5,000 planes have landed and left the runway at lax since i got here...and all i need is $200 to jet set over to a part of the country where cock blocking come in territory...Fresno,,known less and less and bethelem where jesus would be is just a short ride away on a car and thats way to close for this cock fest that left alone with losers on online dating sites and chubs at the club who dont share their drinks and still comment on the curved erection that would get hard for someone who doesnt sound and look like Perez Hilton...
psshh THAT website gets million of dollars of advertising revenue and this shit is just going to guide me to somebody who wont call the FBI just to start shit with me as some pon under a gay flag that would get burned to...
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